Since the dawn of my conscious all I ever wanted was
A safe place to belong, to call home,
To know the wondrous resonance of merging of
the two alike souls.
A soul to hear the invisible tune in me.
To look past my cheery facade
and see the waterfalls and valleys of
my complicated self.
But I was always too much, or too little.
Every companion shy,
Had me looking for a quiet place to cry.
The storms and gales of emotions
Chipped away pieces of me,
I walked alone trailing broken pieces
of my wounded soul.
I walked and walked till I crashed
and burned.
Then lying down in ashes,
I looked out of my torturous prison-
The sun still shines, the wind still sings,
The rain still performs ethereal dances, that I can see.
The day still bid good bye,
With magical twilight,
Welcoming the queen of the night.
I was stunned, and awed,
The world is still beautiful.
I discovered the calm pool,
nestled deep in my soul,
hidden behind scars of lost battles,
Tucked way behind forests of pain.
I had been such a fool!
I walked and walked long miles,
Searching for a love that was never mine.
And I walked away from my soul,
who deserved my love so much more!
I forgot I am still loved, By my Lord.
He saw all my tears, all my struggles, and –
He have always had my back,
He put me back and saw me broken down
Searching for love other than His.
He put me back again.
He gave me eyes bigger than my heart,
He gave me soul more robust than failures.
He lit my path back to Him in twinkles of my tears.
He waited for me to come back, upon –
Realizing the love that I looked for,
Only He can grant.
And I remembered,
I am from a long line of truth seekers,
righteous warriors and wise scholars.
I walk the paths of those who never fit in the box.
My destination was never here
My goal was never here.
I am not from here.